Dear Doctor, I need a lymph node clearance.

Dear Doctor, I need a lymph node clearance.

So I made it to the lymph node clearance operation day. I think because I was so nervous they let S stay with me all the way up to the operation room door. I walked down that long corridor for the second time in my gaping gown, hugged her and to complete cliché told her I’d see her on the other side.
I woke up in recovery feeling really sick. I can’t even remember looking back what happened. My memory is hazy all the way up to being back on the ward with my family around me....

Dear Doctor, I need another operation.

Dear Doctor, I need another operation.

The date of the second operation came around really fast. The weekend before the operation I decided to go to London with my friends. I felt like I needed some time out, the last operation’s recovery was difficult and I felt the next operation would be worse. Especially because it had been unexpected and I didn’t have much time to mentally prepare for it. We drove to London on the Friday. I was more shattered than I realised. My friends were talking about their plans, S wanted to go looking for wedding dresses in London and M was leaving from Heathrow for South America on the Sunday. I wanted to get involved but I couldn’t focus on anything but the operation...

Dear Doctor, I need to have a mastectomy! What does it involve?

Dear Doctor, I need to have a mastectomy! What does it involve?

When I was told I had breast cancer I just assumed I was going to have a mastectomy. In my mind it wasn’t an option not to have one. I just wanted to get rid of this cancer! If that meant having a mastectomy fine! It didn’t bother me, I just looked at it as an unfortunate thing that had happened in my life and I just had to deal with it....